2.18.2010

I. Can't. Stop. Crying.

Today was the day.

The day that we hoped to hear more answers about itty bitty.

The day that I looked forward to, but in the same sense dreaded.


I got up, got ready {yes, this included make up and yes, it is blogworthy because I haven't applied makeup in over a month} and drove myself {yep, again, this is blogworthy since I've not driven in 3 weeks} to my appointment an hour away, while Nana watched Kensley.

I arrived at the office and they asked if anyone was joining me. 

No, I don't guess, I replied.

Why?  Should there be?  What's the news they are going to tell me? 
Would I need to have someone with me?

After going to 7 different offices within the medical building,
5 vials of blood drawn, and 1 ultrasound, I was escorted to Dr. Shockley's office.

That wasn't a good sign.  Typically it means bad news.  I would know.  I've been there before.

I {patiently} waited for what seemed like forever.

He walked in; his demeanor seemed upbeat... but what would the prognosis be?

He shook my hand and said, "CONGRATULATIONS!"

This must be a good sign, but I was a bit taken back. 

I saw him recently.  He knows I am pregnant. 
He saw me twice while I was in the hospital, just last week. 
So why the congrats now?

To sum it up, the results of the tests confirmed that itty bitty is going to make it! 

At this point, doc said that he's predicting a zero percent
chance I will miscarry.  {That's pretty good odds if I do say so myself}. 

Sure, I'm hormonal, but all I wanted to do was cry.

I guess looking back, maybe I didn't realize just how tramatic
this story could have ended.  Medical providers are shocked at the
fight itty bitty has put up!  The footprints poem keeps coming to mind...

"During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints,
it was then that I carried you."

It's not shocking to me; I come from a family of prayer warriors
and have come to expect miracles!
 
But it's a sigh of relief to get the go-ahead to start decorating the nursery,
selecting names, buy baby accessories and stock up on diapers!
(Sorry - this is just a picture of a picture - hope to get it scanned soon as well)

Itty bitty is measuring two days ahead of our estimated due date, is 2 cm big, and heartbeat is 167!

Think technology is cool?  I do! 
I was even able to see the blood flowing through the umbilical cord;
talk about giving you goose bumps!
Want to know something else that I think is SUPER spectacular?

I questioned Dr. Shockley if we would be induced again as we were with Kensley
{I had a WONDERFUL birthing experience and can only hope for the same this go around}

His phrase... "If you make it until time to be induced!"

Ummm... yah... I'm going to make it!  I'm a fighter too, ya know!

Right now the tentative date for induction is September 20th - doesn't mean that much to you?

Well it does to me!

Nate and I are 2 years, 2 months and 2 days apart...
and if itty bitty will cooperate, Kensley and itty bitty
will be 2 years, 2 months and 2 days apart!

Nope, we couldn't have planned that again even if we tried!

I think it's neat... but in reality itty bitty's Birthday will be special,
no matter what day it ends up being on!

P.S. I've lost 4 more pounds, so I'm allowed to eat as much Easter Candy as I want!
Hip Hip Hooray - I'm snacking on Starburst jelly beans as I type :)

P.S.S. One more random tid-bit... 2 years ago today, we found out that Kensley was a GIRL!

5 comments:

Justin and Lisa said...

Love seeing the little arms and legs on Itty Bitty! And as a side note, I can not wait to start clearing my house of some of these large baby items!

☆Sara☆ said...

DO NOT EVER SCARE ME LIKE THAT AGAIN! THE TITLE OF YOUR BLOG HAD ME ALL SICK TO MY STOMACH!!!!!!! I AM SO INCREDIBLY ECSTATIC FOR YOU GUYS! AMEN!!! WHAT A HUGE ANSWER TO PRAYERS! GOD IS GREAT!

PegramPack said...

Ok, when I read the first couple of sentences, my heart sank CaS! But, then you redeemed yourself with the words "congratulations!" What an amazing accomplishment. You must be at or beyond the crucial 10-week mark at this point? What an awesome blessing you have been given. PS - I'm not sure what your original due date was but my husband's b-day is Sept. 27th.

Eliott, Kayla and Lucas said...

I'm so excited for you guys. I cant believe how much he/she has grown already. Our God is an awsome God. Lucas' bday is the 10th wink wink lol :)

Lateshia said...

YEAH YEAH YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!